I am a 17 year old junior in high school. I am really struggling with depression, anxiety etc, due to my lack of a girlfriend. I just feel so unwanted by girls my age and I’ve wondered if I simply am worthless and ugly. It’s not my personality, because I have frequently been told that I am one of the most caring, empathetic, mature, and loving guys around. This is something that I have struggled with from a very young age. I matured very young. I started puberty at age 9 and have had sexual feelings for girls since preschool. I have also looked for my soulmate since then, basically for half of my life. I also have a lot of trauma inflicted upon me by girls. This is frequently through their whining and complaining about “feminine struggles” that I will never be able to understand just because I am male whenever I call them out on their inappropriate behavior or try to set personal boundaries in my relationships. I have also wondered if I was abused by women at a very young age and simply don’t remember, also leading to my trauma. In short, I just want to heal so that I can love myself again. Below is a genuine picture of what I look like.

Posted by Ethan Wills at 2024-12-31 17:26:00 UTC