Therapy wise... I have severe trust issues due to childhood trauma and things, especially due to doctors never believing me and eventually getting my own family to side against me (oh you just want attention, oh you aren't in pain, you are faking it, etc.) I've tried dozens of therapists and I still can't find one for me. I'm running out of options, we don't qualify for lowered costs due to income however we also can't afford to go to one, even if it is like $50 a session. I'm also on a fixed income myself and can't support myself at all due to college costs and other costs, and to still get scholarships and aid I can't get a job. I'm struggling finding a good therapist for me, that is in my insurance or at least somewhat affordable. Most therapists don't help me as I am in the mindset that to help me cope with my emotions I must solve the problem causing them, because no other tools have helped. For example, I've had several anxiety attacks due to a class so my solution was: get a major that better aligns with my future career and gives more pre-reqs for grad school, then drop classes I don't need. However, I've been debating dropping it due to harder classes I no longer need, but there is a 6 drop limit at my college. 6 drops for your whole college career. I would be dropping 4 classes total, however my advisor said not to do that. In this scenario, there is no fix that I can see, so a therapist could help me find a fix or at least encourage me to find a fix myself. The emotional tools I've been given to cope never work. Try some breathing exercises. Nope, didn't help, put me more in a panic because I couldn't do it just right. Try some vivd imagery. Nope can't see anything, I've got aphantasia. Reduce some stress. How the heck do I do that? Drop some activities? Nope, I like them all, they are my escape. Oh, so go to your escape more often. Ummmm... I'd injure myself if I did it more than what I already do. Could you lighten your school load? And lose my money to go to school? That's a stupid decision that puts me in debt and gives me more stress. Like there's no end. How do I find a therapist that is right for me that I can afford, or some other tools that I can use? My mind is very factual and logical, emotions almost never play into my decisions, mainly just severe anxiety makes me spin into similar habits of OCD. Severe anxiety also causes other conditions I have to get worse because of no sleep, pain, etc.
Posted by Ann23 at 2024-09-23 00:43:55 UTC