The more I hear about defense mode, the more I feel like I’m in it and have been for longer than I can recall. I do very well at work but don’t socialize. Any chance that I get to be alone, I take. I wear earbuds whenever possible. It’s become almost impossible to keep eye contact with anyone. Makes me so uncomfortable. My friend visited last summer. I haven’t seen her in almost 20 years and the first thing she noticed was how anxious I was about making eye contact. I feel like I’ve lost any social skill that I once had but tbh, most people make me feel judged. Very few feel authentic to me. I feel like that is my problem but not really sure. My dream is to have enough money to build a house in the woods with everything that I love so I only have to leave when I want to leave. I don’t know how to change this?
Posted by anna91 at 2023-07-14 16:34:29 UTC